Refwecting

Well I find myself back here again. I mean when you have pneumonia, you are basically housebound to 'rest and drink fluids.' I don't think I'm very good at resting. I'm too much of a girl on the go go go! As much as I complain and sometimes wish I was the way I used to be. I know that I don't want to be the person that I used to be, but there are things that I did that I miss. I know that I'm not perfect and I have a far way to go to be the person that I ideally would want to be. I also know that I hold human kind to be at a high standard and sometimes I wonder if I hold it a bit high because most times it makes me seem like a proud person. It really makes me seem like I'm prejudice, but its just that I believe that I won't like it, but I suppose that I can't really say it unless I try it. BUT I'm trying to try?

Things I miss:
I miss reading for leisure.
I miss reading and writing poetry.
I miss doing volunteer work.

Things I'm happy about:
Pursing a degree that I'm excited about
Being more relaxed and carefree
Getting out of my comfort zone

But there is a story that I must tell. My friend, Mallory told me about an event that happened in her business class. Her class was raising money for a charity that the class would collectively donate to and everyone was throwing out organizations to donate to. So the class was arguing as usual all the sororities were throwing in their organizations and there is one that our entire campus usually contributes to. Well essentially it ended up that the organizations it came down to were two smaller ones and some girl had the audacity to insult and demean these organizations because it didn't support her big organization! I was absolutely disgusted to hear that someone really had the nerve to insult another non-for-profit organization as if it were a bad cause. I was just really confused at that. Can't we just agree that the money is going for a good cause? It's just absolutely absurd to me. Everyone has a cause in their life and for you to attack someone else's cause just blows my mind. I know you may not agree with it, but don't attack it. They are just trying to make a difference just as much as you are.

Well it's probably just me being a Buddhist. Speaking of, I have lost my necklace charm that I wrote about in a past post. I'm actually really bummed about it, but I suppose it just makes me focus my spirituality more on myself than an idol around my neck.