Decisions.

It's always a matter of life or death. Not really. I'm really digging Le Loup. I'm listening to them RIGHT now. I always translate their name to The Loop. I'm so American.
Well, lately I've been thinking about the future, about what I want to do. Debating.
Do I want to be a physical therapist?
Do I want to be a psychologist?
Do I want to be a teacher?
Do I want to be a booking agent?
Do I want to be a manager?
Do I want to be a writer?

It always seems that I am given these opportunities to expand and improve my life, but I keep taking the safer one. The one that I know isn't a risk. The one that I think will make me happier. It only makes me happy because I know I'll be safe. I'm afraid of becoming an adult. Having to find a job. Having to worry about bills. I know I'm technically I'm an adult, but as long as I'm still living with my parents and they are still paying for the car I drive and the insurance. I'm pretty sure I'm still a dependent teenager. I need experience to grow but its not always a decision of life or death. But what if it is? And I'm not treating it that way. Just tell me what to do.

Throw It Back.

I used to write a blog on myspace.com/sanita

but I don't anymore. Well I try to write stuff on here from time to time. It is mostly currently meaning I write in it bi monthly ( which is twice a month I hear) Well here's my throw back blog from when I was a senior in high school. I had myspace for almost 3 + years now which is pretty much ridiculous.

I'm just THAT amazing.
Current mood: happy

well i have a lot of stuff i should be doing but im not..again..this blog is furthering the hole i have been digging.. but good news i was amazing at volleyball. i mean DAMN! i was on fizz-IRE! but everyone else really wasn't so i was working my ass off and im really out of shape for sitting out for a week so i get out of breathe like really easy and it was really hard. but there were like 10 hussling awesome passes and1 out of the net which never happens but remember I AM JUST THAT AMAZING! well everyone is angry at me for going on the trip tomorrow but oh well im a senior.. and when else will i be able to see frank lloyd wright and 2 shakespearean plays...c'mon. well off to do my very long list of chores and what not.

Currently listening : Hefty Fine By The Bloodhound Gang Release date: By 27 September, 2005

It's such a silly blog when I look back upon it. I mean it's kind of silly that I went back to look for it. I can't believe that anybody would have read it. I can't believe that anybody would read this blog. My point of view of the world was so one dimensional. I had school, work, and volleyball to worry about. I mean that is still my main focus minus volleyball. Making friends is such hard work. That's what I miss about high school is just knowing your friends. I don't have to do this and that to get to know people better. Maybe its building connections meaning I have to interact with people I don't know and probably don't want to know. I was complaining about too much partying lately. Now I am going to complain about how I'm missing so many parties this weekend. I think I'll have a great experience at my leadership summit though. I get to see my parents hopefully. I get to see my sister on monday. It'll be fine. I gotta start posting the insane dreams I used to have back in the day. I don't really dream that much anymore. If I do I don't remember them.

I'm Made Out of Science Fiction

Well

School is already well and in and I am yet to have an update. My crazy schedule is finally kicking in. Where I have to start my balancing act once again. I wish school was just like the 1st two weeks where you don't do anything but party. Yes? Maybe not I'm not even an avid partier but that statement makes me sound like it. Concerts always dominating my life. I mean my young vivacious body can last so long so that is why I am going to concerts while I can? Always trying to rationalize and logically give a reason for why I do things.

I'm pretty sure I had an ulcer this pass week. Not cool.

Current Things:

Studying for Physiology, Physics and Psychology.

Listening to M.I.A - Kala, Rock - None Shall Pass, Ferraby Lionheart - Catch the Brass Ring, and Okkervil River - The Stage Names

Moving tables for the Billiken Club

Sleep.

Love Ya Like a Fat Kid Loves Cake

I am supposed to learn how to cook today. We'll see how that turns out.
I got a haircut. It sucks. Man I wish I had a brownie sundae right now. It'd be delicious. I got back to school this friday. It's craziness.

I am watching Aly and AJ's Super Sweet Sixteen Playlist of favorite Sweet Sixteen shows. Before I've been watching The Hills considering I haven't seen the past two seasons. I've caught up pretty quickly because they don't talk about anything else. Lo made a guest appearance. I hope she is always on the show b/c she is awesome. I also hope that Stephen will make an appearance except he's all on trl these days.

Here's my Seven Minutes in Heaven Playlist
It's a compilation and evidence that the best songs are 7 minutes long with the exception of one that is basically 7 minutes long.

1. Galang (7:20) - M.I.A.
2. Atlas (7:070 - Battles
3. All My Friends (7:37) - LCD Soundsystem
4. Only in Dreams (7:59) - Weezer
5. Saeglopur (7:38) - Sigur Ros
. (You Are Trying to Break My Heart (6:58) - Wilco)
6. Catastrophe and Cure (7:56) - Explosions in the Sky
7. Transatlanticism (7:55) - Death Cab for Cutie

Honorable Mentions: The Dull Flame of Desire (7:30) - Bjork; Dinner Bells (7:34) - Wolf Parade; Champagne Supernova (7:27) - Oasis

I guess if I took out the Wilco song I'd be cable to have a perfect 7 list. So I'll put it in parentheses are you happy?

aw man today I bought 5 new movies for $16. What a steal! That means they were about $3 or so each! Yes. They were used but uh guess what movies I got. Life Aquatic, Thumbsucker, I <3 Huckabees, Junebug, and Kiss Kiss Bang Bang. Sweet right? God my belly aches from eating this huge burrito. I will be full for days.

All My Friends

Ok.

This summer has probably one of the best of my life. It might be because I don't really remember anything from my other summers, but this one has been quite glorious.

Lollapalooza was last weekend and it was more then I could ever imagine it could be. It just started with a bang. It was hot, but it always is. I went only for $60. I saw a bunch of people who I never thought I'd see. It just multiplied my love for the bands that I saw by ten fold. It was just so much. I think it might have helped that the turn out of lolla was terrible and we got pretty close to all the bands we liked without having to miss any other bands by waiting a hour before hand. It was just TOO good. Friday was probably the most glorious of all days. I just want to break down and cry just at the thought of all the amazingness that I felt that day.

Then I just came back from a roadtrip to Graceland with a stop to metropolis, IL. Maybe because I set my expectations really low for the trip. Although I was really excited. I really had no idea what to expect from the rock star's home. It was really funny because we went to these places that are probably a mecca to fans. There we were not die hard fans of either superman or elvis. Paying a tribute to both. Buying ridiculous souvenirs of both. It was more then I could ever dream of. We ate a sonic. Not my first time, but it is always glorious. It is ALWAYS glorious.

Well I have to reenter the real world now. With school and books and work. Sleep is overrated.

Ha I still feel like I could break into tears at how happy I am. It's crazy how happy I feel.